Thursday, September 22, 2016


Mistakes are made over and over again, yet I can never learn from it. The root of the problem is not caused by anyone but yourself and all you can do is to say sorry, over and over again.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Bread stuff

Thought I'd share some water colour practice that I've done in the past week...FINALLY I can paint the things that I want to paint and since I love food illustration, I would probably continue to try painting different food or raw ingredients in the coming months. Lots of things that I am planning to do since I am now free from my studies after two crucial and crazy years. You have no idea how I felt when I have finally submitted my Major Study project. It was pure exhilaration, seriously :) I'm gonna do a post about this's more like a 'post-study post' or a reflection kind of thing. I think it would be good for me to talk about it...hopefully I can blog about it by next week. Stay tune while I am slowly reviving this old dusty blog of mine :)

Wednesday, September 14, 2016


So back in May, I wrote that I've been into this Korean R&B artist called DEAN and have been a fan of his music ever since I discovered him late last year. Just last week, I managed to see him live when he was down here in Malaysia for the first time! The best part was, one of the venues that he was to make an appearance is Sunway Pyramid, which of course is a plus for me since I stay nearby haha. Unfortunately, on the day of the event I wasn't feeling the best...had serious bad cramps and I didn't had my breakfast/lunch before so I ended up feeling like I just wanted to give up waiting and go home. But of course, I stayed and waited for DEAN in the end. There was this MYFM event that lasted for about 2 hours before DEAN was scheduled to make an appearance. That 2 hours felt like hell to me. I was standing at the back together with all the fans from 12pm and DEAN only came out at 4pm. So imagine the pain that I had to endure omg...I really question myself, "Why am I doing this again? I am too old for this shit lol," BUT, for the love of DEAN and his music...I just had to. Don't judge me okay, I've had enough people judging me on the things that I like and do pffft. 

DEAN performed only 3 songs which were Put My Hands On You, 21 and D Half Moon...really wished that he performed more songs but that event wasn't exactly his showcase. His voice, definitely amazing! I mean his voice was the reason why I love his music :) After his (very short) performance, everyone immediately ran to Popular bookstore cos that's where DEAN will have his autograph session. I actually have bought his album early this year through this Korean website, G Market and I thought that I had to buy another one here in order to be able to get his autograph. Little did I know, there's this thing that you have to register via Universal Music Malaysia to be able to be eligible for the autograph session...long story short, I ended up not getting his autograph at all, which is quite a bummer but with my situation at that time, I didn't want to wait and continue standing inside Popular any I gave up and went to have coffee and cakes with my colleague instead.

If DEAN comes back for a full length concert again I will definitely go cos seeing him performing only 3 songs definitely wasn't enough and I was watching his interview with MYFM yesterday and he mentioned that his EP/mini album is gonna be made into a series! Which means, there will be another one coming out mentioned by DEAN himself, the next EP is gonna be called 130 MOOD: JNGL. Looking forward to it!  Anyway, I sort of made a vlog and you can watch the video below...please don't mind my lack of enthusiasm haha...I am not very comfortable talking by myself and my view while watching DEAN performing was blocked by so many hands in front.

Friday, August 12, 2016


Finally received my mini guidebook after it was printed and  perfect binded. This was my second re-print because I wasn't very satisfied with the first one that I printed. The choice of paper wasn't what I initially wanted so...I kinda had to sort everything out again from ordering new stack of paper, refining some typo error in my layout and also adding another last minute spread...all in a span of 5 days. Thank the lucky stars everything was going on quite smoothly expect for yesterday when I had to go back and forth to the printers because of some file formatting error. Using the latest version of Adobe CC is not always the best choice because the iMac that I am using in the office couldn't really support the software and it is soooo slow to even activating the Adobe softwares now. 

Had to resort to use one my student's macbook since she was still using the CS6 version. Just so thankful that she was there at the right time. Thank you! Anyway, this is definitely not the end yet...still working on my word statement writing which I have 2221 words to go as I am typing this and then there are two more things to complete by next week. It's crazy to think how far I've came and everything is gonna end real soon! It is definitely going to be a bittersweet feeling for me haha.

The Olympic Games can be VERY distracting especially when I felt like I just wanted to watch it every single day. I think I've watched quite a number of swimming events because hello, Michael Phelps! He was like the ultimate favourite since Beijing 2008 so seeing his 'comeback' is so so worth it. Then there's diving which was so interesting to watch and learn to analyse how to see a good and perfect dive...I am still in the learning progress lol. Malaysia won silver at the 10m Women's Synchronised Diving. Go Pandelela! So much more that I have yet to watch...badminton, athletics and rhythmic gymnastics too. Okay, I better stop and continue my writings now.  As how the Koreans say, "Hwaiting!!!" 

P/S: Sending my mini guidebook to my tutors in the UK tomorrow. Wish me luck haha.

Thursday, August 04, 2016

That lingering thought

You know when you have finally completed an assignment, and then suddenly, you have these lingering thoughts that is playing with your head? Stuff like, 'I could've done better or if only I have enough time or if only I didn't procrastinate too much...and all the 'What Ifs' that you can ever think of. I've been getting this kind of thoughts for as long as I can remember and I am sure I am not the only one to have all these thoughts. I know my students do too. Yesterday, when I went to the print shop to get my major project printed, I was having a chat with my student and told him that I really do wish I could have done better with my project and I also wish that I have more drawings to show but because of time constrain, I really have to get everything printed and not put my focus on the book anymore. I still have my writing, work and development and a freaking video to do and shoot so you know that I must continue working on the second part of my major study. 

But yeah..all the 'What Ifs' thoughts are still lingering around until now as I am typing this, I kept re-looking at my guidebook print mockup and figuring out all the things that I could've done better. When will I be able to be satisfied with my own work. That is seriously one of the things that I'm sure you know I am still battling with *sigh* Although I know that the entire grade for my major project is not solely determined by the 'guidebook' but still...I can't help wishing that I could've done better. I guess I just have to convince myself that I have already done my best. The last two months was dead crucial and I know how much time and effort that I have put into finishing my guidebook. Oh, man...I don't even know what I feel right now haha. No point of turning back or regret now cos I know that I'll eventually overcome it :) 

On the other note, yesterday morning when I wanted to open my InDesign file to fix some typo error in my guidebook, the file decided to kill itself...meaning the file was damaged and I couldn't open it at all no matter how many times I tried and every time I wanted to open it, InDesign decided to crash itself too so I knew that I was doomed! Well, not entirely because thank God that I have already exported my designs into PDF format (so that I can bring it to the print shop) the night before so it was indeed a lucky thing for me to at least have a backup file. You know I constantly remind my students to always back up their files every time but never would I thought I am now the unfortunate victim :( Definitely lesson learned. Getting my stuff printed out felt like a HUGE relief to myself because I know that I am almost there to the finishing line. Just hoping everything will be A-OK in the next two weeks before my deadline.  

As much as I was feeling a little disappointed with myself yesterday, I was actually quite touched by one of my student who met me to submit her final work and at the same time gave me a bag of Famous Amos cookies! Very surprised by it because I hardly ever receive anything from my students and I don't expect them to give me anything as long as they do well in their studies then it's all good (so humble lol) but yeah, my student said thank you to me for the guidance and teaching her. Honestly, that felt really nice haha and it's always nice to be appreciated once in a while. Wow this is probably like my longest post in a very long while! I told you I have so many things to say but just can't utter it out sometimes. Oh well, I gotta go and start my writing now...another 3000 words omg!

Thank you!!!
WIP: Designing the cover before my file was damaged.
Off to print!